Monday, December 26, 2016

hari ini, sembilan bulan yang lalu

senin 26/12 (10:29 pm

Ii
genap sudah sembilan bulan Ii meninggalkan kami
sembilan bulan yang terasa lama
dan juga cepat

Ii
i still miss you from time to time
especially when something happened to Mami
for you were the only one who were always around
anytime of the day or even night

Ii
i felt like i was being left alone
when the same situation happened again
no one could ever be able to replace your place Ii

Ii
it doesn't feel the same anymore
even when we still celebrate some special days together
like we used to with you
but nowadays it felt like
we were just being in the same place
but not being 'present' at the given moment

Ii
for Christmas this year
i felt like it was kinda a reminder
that we really don't know
what's going to happen to us
and where we shall be
two years ago you were in south korea
last year you were in the hospital
but this year you were already with our Heavenly Father

Ii
when i remember you know
your face that keeps coming back in my mind
it was when i visited you at your home
even though your body was still in pain
but you brought laughters to those around you

Ii
i still remember what you said that day
how you loved your son so much
how your husband loved you so much
and the expression on your face
when you said those things

Ii
i may not have been a good niece
i may have said or do things that have hurted you
and i didn't got the chance to say i was sorry

Ii
Ii
my one and only Ii

senin 26/12 (10:48 pm